Hi hi... it's me again... yeah... today's just another day like no other... even tho it is so close to NS... left 2 more days... Haiz... sad.. sad... but what to do... all i wanted is... is for someone to accompany me... hear my thoughts... go crazy with me... for this 2 more days... but... but it seems unreal... everyone is just so busy... my dad never understand me... my mum was busy but i know the reason... my brother had more problems then me.... so left with my brothers...
First brother i turned to is Yong Han... but he seems don't like to go out with me... maybe to him... i am really a bad guy... yeah... just like in the movie: "I'm Not Stupid too" when Tom and his friend joined the gang whom they called them-self as brothers too...
To me... only those whom i found something unique about them, i will call them brothers.... like Yong Han... i found motivation from him... every-time i see him... i had the motivation to move on... he's unique... maybe i might sound like gang leader recruiting "ginnas"... but... if i am a gang leader... why would i be even be here blogging ? i would be killing someone or maybe planning to how to rob a bank without leaving any trace behind...My brain can work at 120% of normal people... so... if i am a gang leader... i will be BEST gang leader... as in i will dominate the whole SG's gang... but i choose not to... because i asked quite a few of the people from age 13 - 40 ... that i am stuck in the line... between "Heaven" and "Hell"... you might wonder what is the theme heaven and hell ... just imagine... you are neutral and there are 2 path for you to choose...
One of them leads you being a bad person... which there i will had tattoos all over your body, steal money, kill people, extort money from people... etc etc...
Another path is, it will lead you being a good person and being a good guy is hard as far as i know...
Majority of the people will say that they want to be a good person, but how good is good... i had to ask them... good till someone drop 2 dollar and didn't know... and you return the 2 dollar to the person ?
So for the minority of the people who said they want to be bad person... i had to ask them the same question again... how bad do they wanted to be... and how bad can they be ?? killing someone ? raping ? extort money ?
Back to the topic... Yes, i asked Yong Han first... you might wonder why i asked Yong Han to join my clan... but i think he rejected... he don't even dare to answer yes in normal tone... maybe i am really is a bad guy to him... Yong Han... if you are reading this... please, if i am a bad person... i will be smoking, i will had tattoos all over my body... but did you found any ?? if i am a bad person... i will talk like Casper... so i think he don't like to mix around with me... he feared me... and i don't know what i did that i made him feared me so much... how can you go out with someone whom you called brother and had communication problem with you ? it will be like... when i talk about something and ask for opinion... he just kept silence, just like in the starting of the movie "I'm not stupid too"... when their parents nag at them... they will just kept silence like they are dumb... I did like someone who challenge with my thoughts... because i wanted someone to proof me wrong... so i can grow also... please... i am not perfect... in-fact nobody is perfect... so i guess Yong Han is out
Second... i turned to Wei Ming... Wei Ming this guy is as far as i know... and i guess the only word that i can use to describe him is sophisticated... yeah he like to think out of the box... maybe not so out... i guess... yep asked him out to eat ramen with me... but he didn't even replied me... so i guess is no... never-mind then... he got his wife/girlfriend to take care of... yes wife/girlfriend is more important then me, who is just a mere above average "best" friend to him... dunno i said correctly or not... if you are reading this Ming... Thank you for guiding me along the way to who i am now when i was just another social-reject during the very first year of the Nitec class... Thank you lots Ming... i can never repay you with anything for that... i guess without you... i will still be a social-reject now.
Last... I turned to Jin Cai.... yep he's unique because he is the determination which i needed... he did run with me this morning in the stadium... no no... not only today... it's every alternate days... he is the person who i am finding to run with me... he is my determination... yep... today went running with him... then run till almost 3.30pm we went to eat @ Swenson... he ordered a Chicken Cutlet + the "SSS" set (which includes a soup of e day, a choice of side dish and a sundae) for $10 and only students can have the offer... while i ordered a Mega Burger + the "SSS" set... the picture is below... after we ate @ the swenson we went to walk around the shopping center to digest what we ate... oh ya... btw we only paied $30+ for it... you know why ?? it's because the person forget to key the 2x "SSS" set haha.... so we had the "SSS" set for free woo... after walking for around 30mins we took train home...
When i reached home... i quickly put down my bag on my bed and get my IC... to rent VCDs from the nearby shop... i rented the 2 movie : "I'm not stupid too" & "Just Follow Law"... yep i had just finished watching "I'm not stupid too" and that movie makes me wanna blog... because i cried in the ending part of the movie... some parts of it is very much real... like when Chen Cai's dad is in the hospital and the auntie who is his dad's friend scolded him and in-fact cried... i also cried at that part... it's... just so real... it's just like what i am doing to my brothers now especially Yong Han... i guess he will not know till i am like Chen Cai's dad, lying on the hospital bed and the days for his death is counting... The friend of the actor Chen Cai's dad said... " He loves you... he loves you till he don't how know to express it out "... i guess that part is very true...
I guess the movie "I'm Not Stupid too" is not fully completed yet... Tom and Chen Cai is still in the gang... i think i had to ask jack neo to finish this part... where Tom and Chen Cai decided to quit the gang and got beaten up and extorted the money from them... as i know if you joined a gang... if you want to quit... it will be a painful thing... because they will want something back...
Anyway, thanks for reading today's super long post... i had finally blogged all my thoughts this few days here... hope i will had a happy though before i went into camp which is on the 13th July 2007 @ 9 am...
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The Mega Burger i am talking about... wahahaha
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Is it dead ??? haha... a cat i found intresting after my run...
THANK YOU BROTHERS WHO HELPED ME LITTLE OR ALOT
James™
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