Thinking back...
Today, woke-up with the a headache and a fever... haiz.. dunno what happened wor... and before i continue... i had to say that today i expect something "great" that will happen or someone to ask me out to take a walk or so... so as to lighten my mood for awhile because of the enlistment that is so close... The reason that i sian is because, the closer to the date of enlistment which is on the 13th July... the more sian i getting... what-the-hell is wrong with me... what happened to all my "excitement" of going in NS... why suddenly it disappear... i need that... haiz... how can i get it back brother... i am so mentally ill now... dunno for what reason... maybe i thinking too much ba... but what really is
"think too much" and "think too little" ?? can anyone
define for me...
Yesterday my cousin (younger one) who came to my house for 2 days for the wedding dinner... did change my mood for awhile... he did kept me happy tho... like making funny jokes and those lame acts... thank you for making me happy for a moment... i like your funny jokes... even tho i had heard before the last 2 years or so... you are
like my younger brother every-time when you come to my house... =]
As i said before... not many of the people i know ( including my relatives ) can be in my "special circle of friends" who i called them Brothers... currently only had 4 of them... and i am not going to name them out... you find out yourself ba... if you wanna know... because they are special to me doesn't meant the person will be special to you... haha..
Yep as today go by with the headache on my head... and a fever... i feeling so "down" ??? maybe i am emo. as some of my brother said that i am... i think i had to agree ba... today... as i said... i assume something great or someone will call me out... never-mind if it's just for a meal with me, just to go buy something or even just to go window shopping... i will be happy to be with someone that is my friend... not necessary be one of my brother... just fill me up for this remaining 4 days with activities please... at least make me feel that i am not alone in this world...
Time fly so fast... still remember... that day (which is around June) where i made a promise to the special
someone that i will have a 5 star buffet dinner with that
him.
.. Maybe
i'm not special to him but it's ok...
Brought a Nike bag and a Slim-Fit shirt for him... from my Taiwan and Hong Kong trip...
... if you wonder what i had brought from the trip... i will list them out:
- 1 x Nike Trainer Bag
- 1 x Nike Slim-Fit T-shirt
- 1 x super cool Nike Bag
- 2 x Nike Water Bottle [ one of them is already sold out in S'pore ]
- 2 x unique key chain
- Alot of Mochi (those soft soft chewy thing)
I think that's all... maybe more but i didn't list them...
Just now just went forum for some help... but they advice (?) me to
"make full use of the next few days and relax?" but how ???... first of all... i fell sick on the day that i hope i didn't... Thinking back of all the happy moments i had... i really miss those days... and it's been so long that i didn't been so down before... what to do... anyone can tell me ??? it's getting late le... tomorrow got running with one of my brother......dunno i should be happy (?) or what... bleahx maybe i am crazy... Yong Han... where are you when i needed you sad_sad....
LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE NEXT HAPPY MOMENT
James™
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